Happy New Year 2011

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! OMG, it's 2011 already!!!!! and today was my last day in Laguna! yes, I am officially quit now :D well, not really. Not until the 7th of January actually. But I already cleared up my locker and returned my uniforms (also throw away all the information papers that I collected during my work time in Laguna). So, when everyone were out there partying for new year, believe it or not, I was actually working until 1am last night. But it was a fun working night. I can say that I am officially can work in Universal Studio as an entertainer mascot figure thing. not sure what do you called those kind of job.

Last night, the count down party had a certain theme called 'world culture fiesta' which made us go to the costume place to rent a costume just for this event. I had a lot of fun actually! My first time in the costume rental place and I had the best time in my life ever! I was like "OMG, check out this awesome pirate hat, arrrrrrr~" and "Holly Crap! kitty ears!!!!!!" something like that. I had my mind set on my costume before I went there. I wanted to be a greek goddess. But it turned out to be a roman empress, which is still good :)

So this is the finish product :) looking good right ;) and it was so good that many people actually wanted to take their pic with me, lol. So, I had a really good time.

I havent got the time to actually think of the next new year resolution. But I will. Once I'm done with packing. I am so stress out with the packing at the moment. my room is so messy, trust me. sigh~ I think That's all for now~

xoxo,

Aby

Christmas Eve

Exactly one month after my last post. I've been sick in the past one week now. Still recovering from fever and cold. But all good. Now, today is Christmas eve. I decided to spend it alone, in front of my new Macbook and repeating David Choi's song 'Won't Even Start' over and over again. I probably shouldn't have done that. But it's ok, it doesn't hurt that bad anymore. Beside, I need to be ready before I go back home as mean Brisbane.

I don't know what I will find there. But one thing for sure, I really would hope I wont turn into a bad person again. Bad as mean just very negative. Here, I can feel that I have changed for the better. And I like what I can be. For once after so many years, I can feel normal and happy. Eventho I still do sometime missing a certain person.

Here, I am exposed to a different culture. I am forced to accept this tradition and a very strong office politics. I have to learnt how to work together in a girl majority environment and that one is a hard one. From there, I can see who and what is right and what is wrong. I am glad that I worked in Laguna, that's one thing for sure.

So, this is what I do, reflecting my life on Christmas eve while listening to soppy music. How much more mellow can I be. Something that not many people in Laguna think that I will do. Again, back to 'Don't judge a book by it's cover'.

At the moment, I run out of words. My brain is scattering everywhere. Therefore, I better stop writing. Below is the lyrics of the song that I have been listening to in the past 3 hours over and over again. Enjoy~ and Merry Christmas for tomorrow!

xoxo,

Aby

Won't Even Start Lyrics

What happened
after last summer
when we broke up
in September

I havent seen you
Feels like a long time
Sometimes it still hurts
But I always get by

I still got a piece of you under my skin
Its always there no matter where Ive been

So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then Ill have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

I wish you luck
And I wish it true
Thats the best
I can do for you

Cuz youll probably find love
In someone new
I have to let go
Yeah its hard to do

So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know itll cut me like a knife

So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then Ill have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

Drink, drink and drink

Since I have been living in Singapore, I have been encountered with alcohol so many time now. Well, alot more than when I was in Brissie. According to many people that I know of, to be able to handle ur alcohol consumption is just a matter of practice. But, is that really true? My first experience with alcohol drinking, of course just like many other people, involve underage drinking and lollipops water. In my case, it was Lemon Ruzki. The result from that is, now, I cannot tolerate even the sight of it. That's how deep my relationship with Mr. Ruzki. Then my next fond memory of alcohol consumption is, still involving underage drinking (what can I say, I was just a normal high schooler), was at Jojo's, Brisbane city with at that time, my current bf and our buddy. I ordered a glass of Cosmo cos at that time I thought it was so glam and awesome. Tried so hard to finish it, and it ended up with me in the middle of the city with a plastic bag, waiting for the pink liquid to come out from inside of my body. Charming indeed. Then I started to hate the experience, the taste, the smell, etc.
2-3 years later, of course uni time u just have to drink lots of alcohol. I'm getting good at making excuses and faking it (o yeah! it takes skill baby~). But the conclusion is remain the same, I still cannot drink alcohol. 3-5 sips are enough for me to make me blush and wait for it, the headache comes in after that, and then grumpy grumpy grumpy. O well, I guess in the end of the day, or the moral of this story is, just be comfortable with your body and yourself. don't have to give in to the peer pressure cos you are cool just the way you are. peace out~
Xoxo,
Aby

The Equation of Getting Over Someone

Me and my work mates were sitting on our lunch break, enjoying our meal (well, mostly me since they were talking in Chinese for most of the time and i had to feel lucky if they throw a word or two in English) until it comes to this topic: "how long does it takes for someone to get over their ex."

Ofcourse, I had to listen to this! It is not a secret that I am having difficulty with moving on from my epic long relationship memories. So, I will be so grateful to know, how much longer that I need to spend the rest of my days to be thinking and missing this person. It's not like I don't like thinking and missing this lucky person. I sometime do enjoy remembering the days when we were together and happy and so much in love. But reality is just is, I cannot run away from it. So those fond memories are just like my eccy if you know what I's saying. If I need to run away from this harsh reality, then I start to remember them. But anyway, back to the topic.

So, this girl "P" said that it took half of the relationship time to get over that person that you were in the relationship with. And ofcourse I blurted out "Holly Crap!" and those some lucky bastards that knew about my "situation" looked at me, laugh their head off and pointed their fingers at me (very charming indeed). Because if i think about it... it might took me 4-5 years to be able to move on from him. That's a very... either sad or happy thing, im not sure either...

Well, at least i can write something different now~

Much Love,
Aby

Fat Girl Comment

I just read an article on FHM Singapore. It's pretty interesting and funny at the same time. basically, if u dont like a person, the best way to put them down is by saying "you're fat!" and you win~ for example

A: OMG, my bf just proposed to me and bought me this 8 carrats diamond that cost him like a fortune!!!! What about you? found a bf yet?
B: is it just me or you look like u're gaining weight?

B- Win!

cos the "fat" comment has been around for ages and most girls pratically hate it! we are living in a world where girls are obsess to be skinny like a super model.... hell, even when u said that to a model, they will probably believe you and start vomiting their meal.

so girls, use the "weapon" wisely :)

XoXo,
Aby

My Epic Wakeup!

I was actually waking up with a freaking headache~ so not a good way to start a day. But i have to go to work so i have to do something about it which im grateful to mr panadol for inventing panadols non drowsy :) cant have a day off since R is still sickie~ so ya, just have to survive for today at least...

Anyway, on my way to the workplace, the is always blasting this chinese crappy songs that i seriously dislike... so i took the earphone out, plug it into my iphone, and listen away on my ipod~ shuffle and first song that came up was "you and I song" by the wannabies... such a good song~ loving it since the first time i've heard it from Romeo and Juliet the movie~ so at least that cheered me up... the second song was by coldplay "Viva Lavida"! super epic right! so ya, very very happy with those two songs selection.

but now the headache is coming back and is gay. at least the weather is good.. dark and cloudy and moody.... hoping for rain~ come on mr raining man, give me with what u've got!!!!!

starting to get sick, sigh... not good~

XoXo,
Aby

My Morning Complained

Im doing the morning shift today. So here I am, sitting in my little work space corner, minding my own self. Then a guy walk passed me from the changing room to the cafe. I noticed him because of his perfume... brings me back some happy memory from back in the day... just a lingering feeling and memories.... anyway, so I'm just minding my own busy, trying to look busy infront of my pink laptop.... Then he came up to my table and asked "do you take complains"
ofcourse we do take complains here, eventho im trying very hard to avoid it... but i guess that is come with the job... so i took down his problem and yea, try to be all nice and professional and all that... but still, hate it... cos now, i have to report this to the related department, and i have to talk with the significant people on what is it about... and they hate me now... probably not hate... just pissed with me.... so sometimes people do shoot the messenger and that's not cool~

apart from that, last night I had an epiphany! Instead of thinking of cold war and hating R, why dont I just be nice to her and dont care about her.... people told me to not care about her and all that, but i guess it is different when its coming from ur own head.... so ill try to be a better person.... cos isnt it what i have always trying to be, to be a better person? (eventho i often forgot about it). well, she's still sick today~ so karma is indeed a bitch~

XOXO,
ABY <3