What can you tell from this picture? both of them are happy and in love, yes? at least in that picture or in that moment. this time in this blog, after a very long time of not updating it, with lot of pain cos i had my nails done a week ago, I'm going to talk about a moment. A moment that you can find in anywhere, in TVs, novels, magazines, everywhere... like the pic up there, yes they look happy... probably in that moment they had a good time, probably they were crazy in love and happy, i don't know.. many scenarios run into my head and i cant help but to wonder what will happen 5 minutes, 1 hour or even a day later after that? will they still be that happy? will they still living that moment? will it be ruin? did she made a wrong choice? who knows?
as for me, two days ago i just a big decision for my self and my relationship... no, I'm not engage, this is something else... i guess it is as big as that... at least for me... So this is what i decided to do... I'm going to let Will follow his extreme principle - to create love and peace... indeed, I'm dating a humanitarian. but it is more to that than that.... it is about his freedom and trusting him and his judgement with girls... if he being too flirty or not, i let him be the judge of it and I'm going to trust him 100% and that is what i told him.... and that time, i meant moment, it sounded great and good and romantic... you know, I'm supporting my lover 100%, so of course it sounded great... so that was like this little scene from a movie where you see there's a couple, having a conversation and cuddling... he's happy and she looks happy... and they live in that 5 minutes scene... but who knows what's coming after that? and i really don't know what I've signed in my life on... at least i don't need to worry about those two bitches.... but now so many things are running through my head... like, what happened if he going to abuse my trust? i think that is my biggest concerns.... and my body and mind had reacted (by it self) to distant my self from him... to stop loving him is my immediate respond to that... i really don't know... i wish there's a movie where they shows the rest of that moment... who knows what will happen.... and I'm really scared... i repeat, i am really scared to do this.... i don't know but i hope he will always assures me that i can trust him or something.... otherwise my other defence will be to steal people's bf just because sisterhood is gone!
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