My Generation

while i was working last night, i started to think about my cousins... two of them are getting married this year, there was one last year... there was two or three the year before and four or six of them already have kids! What got me thinking is that one of them that is going to get married this year is the same age with my big sis, 26... and my other cousin, when she got married, she was 24 years old... dont worry, im not worried about getting married and stuff, but what im worried is that now it is my generation's sorry, our generation's turn to get married, reproductive and grow old... yes, im scared of growing old... and then die... one of my biggest fear ever... but i learnt to control it.. but the pang is still there sometimes... like last night for example...

here i thought that im still young and stuff.... but when u think about your age, your parent's age and let say if i have kids now, the different will only be 25 years old... and next year my parent will still be here... in that kind of sense... but if i or shelley (my sis) wants to wait until we turn 30 to have kids... sigh, i dont want to think about it... part of it is the fear of the unknown... and the other is fear of getting old...

dont worry, it is just something that kept me busy last night from work, lol~

xoxo,
Aby