My Weak Moment

I dont know why but i have been feeling down in the past two days... trying so hard to keep my mind positive... trying to be happy... keep reminding myself that i am happy... that i dont need anyone to make me happy... but i feel like crap... i think i feel lonely... and my book sai tht i should embrace this feeling and then after you settle with it you will know what to do... i start my new job today... today was the induction day and for some reason i felt bad and frustrated already... like im going to be in this routine... i know i know, i dont need other people telling me that i need to think positive because i know what im "suppose" to do! heck i read that book like a bibble... but yes, it is just the matter of gettin use of the idea... i really dont like feeling depressed like this and so many negative thoughts running trough my head like a constant non stop bullet train in japan... so im embracing this "lonely" feeling... and hope something good will come my way really soon.... i wish will can be more caring... keep it in mind, im just embracing my weak moment here... i will get over it... i hope i can be stronger than i am now... really really really lonely....

xoxo,
Aby