Still reading the same book as before, but now im up on third chapter: change is inevitable, so stop resisting and surrender to life's flow. it is about life is about changing, the life forces you to grow and to grow or to change, you need to let go something such as the past, relationship and so on. sometimes people scared to change because the are comfortable of being where they are now... but when thing get shakey, they will get really upset about it because they are scared of the unknown thing... the unknown of what will happen if i do this and try to just keep holding on to it... this chapter ofcourse rlated to the second one: the purpose of life is for you to grow into the best human being you can be... and this one is about you growing and appreciate what you learn everyday instead of thinking i didnt achieve anything this week you should think that the experience of hardness making you grow and teaching this new skills.... therefore it is about changing!
In relation to these three chapters, those chapters are really mean something to me... especially to my spiritual growth. spiritual in this means more to finding inner peace and be comfortable with life an myself. i found myself grow into a better person in the last few days and more calm and relax... i've been trying to have these set of thinkings: positive and other people's action wont have anything to do with me if i dont let it... so im creating a barrier inside me and let my self exposed to the world and go with the flow... and with this flow i mean im not going to set target or expect something from anything or anyone... it is something that you take for granted or come normaly to me to just expect, he should say thank you or she should behave like an adult or he should be a acting like a better boyfriend.. but if i keep on thinking that way, unintentionally im setting a goal in my head and if those things never occurs then ill get upset and it will affectng my emotional balance.... and that is something i want to avoid... so, i can see that im growing into a better person, even now, im at home while Will is away, halloween night, dressing as one of the KiSS with other girls and having fun, without me.... i know that this kind of thing used to affect me like crazy... but now, i told my self, his action is not going to do anything with me! im not going to let his behaviour affecting my feeling... and it is his right to be happy too. so i am growing and i feel better this way... more peaceful. dont know abou being empty yet... probably i am, but if i am allowing that thought eating my emotion, then i wont be happy am i?
Therefore, the mantra will be: I am happy no matter what happen~
xoxo,
Aby
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