My HongKong Life

will be ended in 2 days. im coming back to brisbane on the 16th of october. Will is staying in hk regardless. my 2 months in hk, not that good... got a job opportunity at cantab company, teaching spoilt brats and it is only last for a week, since my visa cant get through the process, the chances was 40% less.... so got my one week paid and that's it. Will's colleague introduce me to this lady and gave me heaps of hopes... they were gone in less than 5 minutes when i met her for a job interview. went to Maccau to renew my holiday visa, out of 50 people that went in and out, i had to be the one that got chosen and interviewed by the immigration people... basically said im not allowed to do that and that i cant extend my visa to stay in hk anymore... while i know this girl that works with will always go in and out hk once every forthnight to renew her visa cos she's working in the company illegally.... yes, life it is just not fair. so that's it... i have to go back to brisbane... yes it is sad to have to go back and leave Will behind... but i need todo that, no other way around.

what makes it even worse is that Will doesnt even have any feeling nor emotion anymore... he doesnt feel sad about it... he doesnt even want me back to hk anymore... makes things even worse and now talking about breaking up... cos he wants to focus on his career... i understand that, but why have to giving up on us? i dont know... if this is a normal relationship, things will be alot easier... it is not like he stops loving me... he still loves me... but he wants simple life... which ready to give up what we have now.... so ya... God must be really hates me to give me such a hard life.... i've been crying like crazy because, there is nothing really going according to my way.... not even in love.... making me feel like i just want to kill my self... but then common sense telling, stop being an idiot about it! should be stronger by now.... should be.....

xoxo,
Aby