My Parent

not just my mum, but my dad also... sigh~ i know, eventho they have plenty of bad qualities that i really hate or dont like... they are still my parent afterall... but still, when all those bad qualities came out, cant help but to think negatively about them..... such as my dad... i dont know how he sees me as his daughter... seriously, i always think of my sister, shelley as his little princess, always! and she's my older sister.... he always come to her rescue and she is his priorities.... i dont really mind actually... i mean, i grew up that way.... in a way, to be invisible in the family is seriously not a bad idea at all... i really do wish my mum will leave me alone tho..... i dont know... my mum, all she can do is nag nag nag nag nag and nag.... then abit of guilt tripping, make it big, yes she is a drama queen.... then you have my mum... she's all those combination..... she really wanna think that she's open minded and stuff, but she's not... at all.... nothing that she can do about it.... since she is grew up with those kind of personalities... but then, when i grew up watching her, i used to see her as my role model... a strong career woman, not being dependant to anyone, including her husband.... yes, those are positive qualities.... and i do believe that i have those characteristics aswell in me.... i am a strong girl.... i mean, i got bullied since i was little from my neighbours basically, the whole girl in my class hated me back in grade 6, my dad said that he didnt want to come to my graduation day (yes, that is recently, but then i think he came to his senses and came, but still.. words are weapon!) and so on..... sigh, gosh, i had to put up with lot of crap in my life.... but i guess that is just part or life... but anyway, that's different story.... i just wish that my parent can be cooler or something than they are..... but, that wont happen, ever. just have to accept them and tolerate them..... really want to move out quickly.... seriously, dont think they are happy for me if im happy... if im miserable, they will be dancing over the moon.

P.S: my mum is not anget anget tai ayam, but my dad is, cousin.