Christmas Eve

Exactly one month after my last post. I've been sick in the past one week now. Still recovering from fever and cold. But all good. Now, today is Christmas eve. I decided to spend it alone, in front of my new Macbook and repeating David Choi's song 'Won't Even Start' over and over again. I probably shouldn't have done that. But it's ok, it doesn't hurt that bad anymore. Beside, I need to be ready before I go back home as mean Brisbane.

I don't know what I will find there. But one thing for sure, I really would hope I wont turn into a bad person again. Bad as mean just very negative. Here, I can feel that I have changed for the better. And I like what I can be. For once after so many years, I can feel normal and happy. Eventho I still do sometime missing a certain person.

Here, I am exposed to a different culture. I am forced to accept this tradition and a very strong office politics. I have to learnt how to work together in a girl majority environment and that one is a hard one. From there, I can see who and what is right and what is wrong. I am glad that I worked in Laguna, that's one thing for sure.

So, this is what I do, reflecting my life on Christmas eve while listening to soppy music. How much more mellow can I be. Something that not many people in Laguna think that I will do. Again, back to 'Don't judge a book by it's cover'.

At the moment, I run out of words. My brain is scattering everywhere. Therefore, I better stop writing. Below is the lyrics of the song that I have been listening to in the past 3 hours over and over again. Enjoy~ and Merry Christmas for tomorrow!

xoxo,

Aby

Won't Even Start Lyrics

What happened
after last summer
when we broke up
in September

I havent seen you
Feels like a long time
Sometimes it still hurts
But I always get by

I still got a piece of you under my skin
Its always there no matter where Ive been

So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then Ill have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

I wish you luck
And I wish it true
Thats the best
I can do for you

Cuz youll probably find love
In someone new
I have to let go
Yeah its hard to do

So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know itll cut me like a knife

So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then Ill have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start