My Update

i know that i post almost everyday... but its not really about my feeling and such, therefore here i am,writting well going to write about them...

so in the past days, i guess everything was fine overall... made new friends and have friends that care and just be there for me kinda nice :) eventho steve, my supervisor, kinda gave me some attitude.. or probably he was just moody, but yea... that's not goin to stop me... therewas time when i was really moody and stuff but rose, my new buddy, were nice and stuff... told me to smile and frown doesnt suit me and so on... then we go on diet together and maccas together, lol~
i guess at that time, i was moody and thinking,i dont feel like being happy so let me be angry like this... but it still affecting others eventho im not trying to... so that was my dilemma... but now, it feels like, im feeling fine and good and small ugly thing wont affect it, which i think is a good attitude...

Rachel, one of my going to be good friend has a pretty rough week... in a way i can relate so many behaviours of her... we, in a way, are kinda similar... but i guess im much more social in a way than she is... we both like to stay at home, we like tarot psychic stuff, we both kinda scared of guys.. more reserved the other word, cant tolerate huge amount of alcohol and... cant think of anything more... but yea, we are similar in a way... if i dont force my self to go out there and socialise, ill be like ended up like her... going to a mall with my mum and dad :(

anyway, back to rachel... she has a bad week and she doesnt want to talk it out to people cos she doesnt want to burden them with her stories... but now she's all sad and depressed.... and i told her that if she wants to, she can always talk to me about it... i know how is it feel to be depressed and to feel alone... and i dont want my friend to feel that way... especially when she is not alone! so hope she's feeling lot better now...

Will... i think... i dont know.. i dont want to jinx it... but it feels like the relationship is lot better than months ago.... it feels like it is getting better... his attitude and stuff... which ofcourse making me feel happy :) but yea.. a couple of days ago we had kinda like a fight, about the same thing, but yea... i think i can starting to feel it... to kinda over it... but then, we'll see cos im a very moody person... and forgetful.... i mean seriously, i had a fight with someone... 30 minutes later ill be like... what were we fighting about? which is good... but then for some reason i hold grudges aswell.... very complicated human being indeed.... meh~

thinking to do another video blog... so ya.. looking foward to it.. hopefully tomorrow.. better start thinking what to talk about then :)

xoxo,
Aby