sigh... again, sigh.... it is hard to say it because once you said it out loud, it is there.. and you will exposing your self to other people and your self... when you said it out loud, that means you are accepting it... so here i am... alone... lonely... shouldn't feel this way at all.... im really missing Will... but dont think he will be missing me... but then again i dont know... i wish i have people that i can hang out and be stupid with... Esther, i really miss you... and probably i said this over and over again, but the other day, when i was thinking about Will, over and over again, i snapped... not in a bad way kind of snap, but in a way that made me realise why did i think of him alot... i should be thinking about myself more than him... i should be taking care of my self... instead of being in my room being all depressed and feeding myself like crazy... should really stop doing that... i lost 5 kg and that took me forever... so i really dont want to waste all that... i really should be honest with my feeling... but i dont want to admit defeat to this loneliness... i wish... and i can only wish... starting to get enough of everything... just want to end all this...
xoxo,
Aby
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