My Catching Up

I have been getting used to the idea of not having internet around... so now, kinda lazy opening up the internet... but i need to get rid of that laziness, so here i am... typing~

i know i have so many things to talk about, my birthday for example... the party... my work place... Will... my life and many more....

but now, im just gonna talk about my life... i havent got any pictures to put up from my party, so ill write about it later :)

my life, as Flo said, seems like its getting better, which i think is true... and it is nice to have someone to notice that... but then i dont want people to think that, hey, everything is just going well for her because it is not like that at all.... everything comes from the mind!

if you actually following my blog entries then you knew that i was super depressed and it took forever for me to get to where i am now... even now, i cant say that im 100% happy within my self but i really tried my best to be more positive in life.

i realised that i've changed the way i see things differently... how if i hit my head on things, i didnt think, damn why me... but instead... nothing! then appreciate more things in life... like if i almost get hit by a truck, ill be, good thing that thing didnt hit me, instead of, OMG, God must hates me or something... well, you get the idea...

and to train my brain to think that way required alot of effort... but i am glad that im doing it.. and now, this world seems like a better place to live...

just have to find a positive way to accept esther and ken's departure now... traitor!
at least now i have places to stay if i go to sydney or singapore... yea!

well, i just thought about it this morning, while half working half dozing that if i decided go to hk again then i might visit singapore for a week or something... then stay at esther's, lol~ then i can catch up with many people there, including kelvin... wonder how is he doing...

have been thinking about him recently... realised that i really do like him and still am... but again, reality hit back! never! he doesnt want to live in brisbane and i dont want to live in jkt... and im in my way of getting my australian passport, so that's more indication of "no". but the memories that we had together still making me smile, which is a good thing... i need that when i get lonely...

hving such good friends around also a good thing... thank you for ken and esther to be around me... really, they really helped me... i love them both to bits...

and also having someone stalking me is kinda nice aswell.... it gives u the confident boost in a way... yes, i still need other people approval that im hot! im admitting it, so there~ at least im being honest. so in this moment, i would like to say thank you to my stalker and admirer :)

and... no complement on my new hair colour! stupid hair dresser, i want my hair to be pop! not flop! sigh~

xoxo,
Aby