My Work Night, My Old Memories

Not so good... felt sick... i would like to think that it was from that piece of lamb chop that i had before i left work. but i think i just think too much about Will, again. sigh. i really need to get over him, i know. and people keep on telling me to get over him, i know. and i know that sometimes, i do feel a very strong urge to just, nah, this is not worth it. but that's probably deep down i was hoping that he's feeling miserable. i cant live like that. i need to be above that, and not be petty like that. i was thinking to just get over it and to just forgive him and have nothing to do with him ever again. also deep down, i really really want him to realise what he did was really wrong. at this point, i do think there's no point holding a grudge over it, cos if he never realised it, then he'll repeat it again, and next time,the karma will be lot lot bigger than just that.

Apart from that, just remembering the time that we had together... that's in his formal, i guess the fact that i went to four formal was more exciting that attending it. but i did have fun. i just love spending time with him and that's what we did there.

and this is at south bank, Buddha's festival... sigh, we looked really happy and stuff... really depressing to see where we are now and what are we turning into now... that he's a two timing bastard that will try anything to get a girl into having sex with him. gosh, so depressing. to think that i love this person dearly.

Ill talk about it in details sometime... really tired and sick. just not a very good combo.