Is started by the sounds of birds chirping and loud neighbours. Then i watched Emily and Gabriella playing bitch slap together... sigh, Emily learnt how to tackle and how to jump on Gaby... poor little thing... really wish they could play something softer... like tea party or something like that... fish party???
anyway, I started talking to Pei's brother. Well, he said hi to me on MSN first and i was like... who is this? i had no clue cos the MSN display name was written in Chinese, and I'm thinking... Asian... do i know a hardcore Asian? hmmm... but yea, turned out to be ML, like a gangsta name, yo yo, sup! ML in the house.. yo~ exactly like that. i always thought that he's Pei's little brother, and then he said that he's older than Pei... and i had to call Esther to confirm that...
It is kinda hard to talk to him sometimes... cos we're probably on the different wave length. ill be making a joke, and he'll take it seriously... so the joke was on me... just like a song~ but i guess, i have to be more considerate when i talk to new people... i usually just talk without thinking about it to new people... but then i guess so i know what is okay and what is not to talk about with them... trial error.
I really cant be bothered writing the explanation email to Will now... just take effort and it probably not worth it. i don't know... just really have no motivation to start. really need to be concerned about tomorrow assignment. i hope taro is doing his part! sigh.
I've got an invitation from ML to go to his exhibition gallery. i know, so artsy~ lol. i guess it will be a good thing to go there, mingle and socialise. and it's with an invite entry only! how cool is that! i feel so important, hahahaha. nah, it will be another excuse to dress up.
I need to go back to my assignment... and at the same time my brain just keep thinking random things and mostly kinda depressing... have to train my brain to think only rainbows and butterflies! That Dan's stuff is still bothering me. i know that I'm not wrong, but i know that he's cut at me because of his own fault... which is not to listen carefully... and not to confirm.... so, he basically changing his own story then. even if i want to talk it through with him again, i think he will just cut over it and stuff... meh, like i said, it is not my fault if you hear it differently.
In regards to Will... i really don't know... the whole point is that he lied to me heaps of times, or not telling me stuff and then be all dramatic about the whole thing. I'm just sick of drama. don't want any of it. i just want to have a decent nice lovey dovey relationship that based on trust. i know it will be hard to just trust someone again... especially since i used to think that all men are bastards, filling with bastard and coated with bastard. then came along Will.. and i thought he was different, not going to lie and all that... but no, no no! he's the worse out of the worse. but i know i will always a soft spot for him cos he has the power to be able to convince people with his sweet talking ability. but then no action... more guilt tripping such as, it always the world against me, or I'm going to take drugs again.... keep reminding my self not to go on that level.... low~
If he is just lied to me then sure, that's just plain lie... but to go to other people and said stuff like "you are more attractive than Aby" or "Aby stalked me all the time" while he said to me about the other girl "she's ugly", "she's all over me" and so on... just not right at all! and still, he doesn't realised it... where is his brain when he needs it... sigh. so i think this kind of stuff wont get fix at all... it is broken like seriously broken into dust... cant do anything about it.. unless if you buy another china. which is to get a new relationship. and i am getting one. not going to wait for him anymore. like i said over and over again.
still waiting for some replies in regards to venue. i want to have my birthday/ graduation party at a nice pubs. since this is my first time doing it.. i really don't know what to expect in regards to price and stuff... so i hope they will get back to me ASAP. i said to Ally that i want people to wear high school uniform.. but if it out in public.. probably not a good idea... probably something nice and dressy will do. going to invite 20 to 30 people... need to think of the list now i guess.... wait, not now... after my assignment done.
just cant wait for holiday to come!
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